Monday, January 20, 2014

hunger, made to crave day two

chocolates and cheesecakes
french fries

too many thoughts occupied 
with food

how do i go from this
to craving, yearning, for the courts of
my Lord

a fullness in my whole soul
top to bottom
Jesus, my Lord

Beginning to read Made to Crave. Also, fasting today and praying for direction for my church. Ironic, maybe, or by design...

As I sit here hungry, I pray for direction for my church community. I pray for God's blessings on all the churches of northeast Ohio. I pray for new leaders and new disciples of Jesus, especially in our student ministry. I pray God increases in my life, and I decrease, especially in my desire to eat unhealthy things and satisfy (try to) my soul with food.

My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the Lord;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God. 
Psalm 84:2

Sunday, January 19, 2014

what do I crave? made to crave day one

I've joined an online Bible study going through the book Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. It's one of those books I've had on my shelf for a long time, but never bothered to read. It's finally time.

I'm sick and tired of leading my life and turning to things like food to comfort and satisfy me. I'm looking to crave so much more - crave my God that created me to worship him. 

I'll be posting my progress, blogging about the book and online activities. Writing more poetry. 

i'm backwards
going the wrong way
typical, usual, i keep playing with
the setbacks

satisfaction in the moment
feel-good on demand

when did i let myself 
crave this and that

empty of me, change me to less
fill me with you, become more of Jesus

i am less, he is more

overcome me, bring me
along the straightest path

to my happiness in you

Saturday, January 19, 2013

daily time with God

I'm trying to be better this year about spending time with God daily and also praying and reading the Bible. I need to be better about it. My word of the year is "discipline" - trying to be a better disciple of Jesus and also be disciplined in my spiritual growth as well as many other areas, including physical, financial, etc.

I want to write more here, and be more creative as well. It's helpful for me to write - I've been trying to keep a written journal, but it might be easier to type it out!

I've been struggling with a few things lately, not quite ready to talk about it here, but I'm hoping to get to a place where I can open up, maybe here, but especially with God.


unsettled today
with a whisper of warmth in the wind
sun, pink and yellow
time myself, alone, thinking
am I right?

what more could I be?
what more should I be?

wanting and wanting
dividing the desires from the callings
deep and deeper

put me in another place and time

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

answered prayer and revelations

I realized today I think God answered a prayer for me, something I've been praying about for awhile. I asked him to be very clear with me on this, and I'm pretty sure he was. It's unexpected, but I have to see it for what it is. There's no other way to read it.

Another revelation of mine, as well. I invite people to church regularly and get turned down a lot. What am I doing, sacrificing for these friends and family members? How can I expect them to give this a try if I'm not also giving their lives a try? More to think about!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

reading the new testament this year

So my friend Amanda started a blog, which inspired me to try to write more here! I'm trying to read the New Testament in a year, and also really just spend much more time with God. It's not easy, I have to develop the habit, but I already see the benefits. It's so, so necessary to do this to be able to grow closer to Jesus.

This year has already been great, and I expect a lot of amazing things for 2013. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me. I want to be changed, guided by the story he's writing for me, and open to trusting even the craziest of paths. Here goes!

Sunday, December 23, 2012


Heart is hurting a lot tonight
Waves, painful
Anxiety overwhelming
Fear, flooding


Needing a touch
A gesture
Discover the plan

How will you find me?


Love me and want me and see me

Light up
In the room, empty before
Full, complete, safe

Me, and you